For those who say sleep is overrated - I bet we all wish we got more of it... I know I do!
I would love to go into our bedroom and lay down on a luxurious bed and fall fast asleep with no interruptions and sleep for a solid 8 hours. Wouldn't you?
No instead I'm up late my mind racing with a 1000 thoughts, then go upstairs to finally try to get some sleep. I lay down on our 9 year old mattress that makes my body feel like I laid on a huge pile of boulders. I hear buzz saw John to my left who has this thing with taking up about 3/4 of our Queen size bed and also uses a pillow as a body pillow which is poking me in the side or back on the 12" he has so kindly left for me to sleep on. :P Love you honey!
In my right ear I have Reiley's baby monitor which sounds of her tossing, turning, sighing and moaning all throughout the night, and this doesn't include the some nights I have an alarming and annoying beep coming from her room too needing me to go fix it.
Every single morning my 'alarm' goes off at 6:30 a.m. Every... Single... Morning... there is no sleeping in for me, not a single day, no day off.... my 'alarm' Reiley's feeding pump. I won't go into why the feeding pump today for those of you who don't already know.
At the foot of the bed on the floor - I hear Bones (one of our dogs) he shakes his head and his collar jingles with the three tags he wears. He keeps managing his way in our room at night... the door doesn't seem to stick shut... and often times he is laying right next to my side of the bed and I step or trip over him moving through the room.
So while I lay there listening to all the wonderful sounds of the room, my mind spins more. Going over what I need to do tomorrow, or what I did that day, wondering if something is wrong Reiley when I hear her make a noise that isn't a typical noise in the night... sometimes my mind starts to think about someone is trying to break in or someone is in the house... I get myself all in a panic then and forget it there is no sleeping for sure.
How I hope we get just *some* money back from our tax return this year so we can finally buy a new mattress AND a king size bed, maybe then I'll feel like I'm sleeping in at least a twin... LOL!! For the rest of it... well not much of that will change and unfortunately I can't really take a heavy duty sleeping pill because I do have to be able to attend to whatever I need to for Reiley in the night.
So if you see me around and I look tired, you know why, not enough make-up in the world to fix the zoombie look! HAHAHA
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